As many of you would have noticed, my blog is a bit borked at the moment. I have been trying hard to get it fixed and make alternative blog arrangements. This is coming along, slowly.
However, what has been interesting is the amount of stress this has caused me. I have been feeling quite agitated about the state of my blog and it’s mainly because the comments look ugly now and stuff up the formatting. I didn’t have the most beautiful blog in the world, but now it looks like Geocities deformed cousin. I kinda feel like I would if I woke up in the morning with poo on my face but I couldn’t get it off, and no one else was helping me do it.
It’s pretty amazing to me how concerned I am with the image I portray on my blog. Why should I really care if my blog formatting is stuffed up and comments are a bit (lot) broken? This blog provides about 20 seconds of interest a day to about 30 people, it’s not really a big deal. Most of the people who read this blog read it because they know me and no one reads it because it’s got great design.
I worry with the comments being stuffed that people are going to stop reading my blog. Why would that stress me? I don’t use this blog to bring people to Christ, nor do I use it to raise awareness of important issues, I don’t advocate for the poor and I don’t train people to be better leaders, lovers or friends. I talk about a few small thoughts, post a few videos, say a few silly things. It’s not a big deal, but I stress anyway, because I want to be liked. How much value do I put into being able to broadcast my small thoughts to a small audience?
In fact not only have I stressed that my blog looks bad, blogging everyday has been making me worry that I don’t have enough interesting things to blog about. And I don’t. So I worry people might stop reading. Small thoughts, small worries, big deal.
On the other hand, tonight in church we looked at Revelation 4. About the great creatures standing in the throne room of heaven. Of the 24 elders, representing all the people of faith in the history of salvation, who lay down their crowns before God. The creatures and the elders who cry out:
“‘Holy, holy, holy
is the Lord God Almighty,’
who was, and is, and is to come.”
“You are worthy, our Lord and God,
to receive glory and honor and power,
for you created all things,
and by your will they were created
and have their being.”
God sits in heaven receiving all glory, honour and praise, and he deserves it. He made the universe, he is eternally good, he saved the world through the greatest act of grace in eternity. He is worthy. On the other hand I sit on earth and hope my comments will work so I can be thought of a little bit better by people who don’t judge me on the state of my comments or the interestingness of my posts.
I’m not saying that my love of my blog stops me from worshipping God. I am struck however that my eyes are on my blog. And when I spend all this time thinking about my blog and how to fix it, I elevate myself and the importance of my blog. Were I to lift my eyes more, and consider my blog in the context of the glory of God, it may not be such a big issue.
How do you worship God with a blog?
You blog well, you blog to add value to people’s lives, and you blog knowing that your blog isn’t a big deal in other people’s lives, it isn’t a big deal in the world, and it isn’t a big deal in God’s big plans, so it shouldn’t be a big deal to you. I want to lay this small blogging crown at God’s worthy feet.
I guess it’s similar to how we can live. We live well, we live to add value to people’s lives, we live to lay our small crowns at the feet of God. The big things to us often aren’t really the big things. It helps to lift our eyes sometimes.
God may care about the comments formatting on my blog, but if does he probably doesn’t care much. It’d be helpful for me to remember that.
Man, by the end of the post I was totally over the word blog.
I copied this from facebook, because as the blog says- the comments were screwed up. But now that it is a shiny new blog, I thought I might copy my less shiny and less new comment and paste it here, so that when historians study this blog in a 1000 years time, they have all the really important information.
“I didn’t comment on your blog (partly cause i don’t know how and partly because it may hurt the prettyfullness) but i just wanted to say that i really enjoyed it 🙂
I’ve been thinking similar stuff ‘of the late’, about the way we are constantly measuring ourselves by the worlds standards and our standards as they relate to the world. which in the end just leaves us exhausted, drained and constantly failing to live up to a standard, and our failure left unforgiven. Things would be much better if we were to measure ourselves by God’s standards and live in the knowledge that our failure is forgiven.
I guess I just wanted to let you know that i really appreciated that you were able to put into words so well what I’ve been feeling. It was a real encouragement and a real blessing.”
I’m glad it resonated.